SHE WANTED OUT
She had had enough. They took her for granted. She peddled as fast as she could, away from the misery, the pain, anguish and heartbreak.
Growing up, she always felt alone, longing for a friend, a guide, a direction. Learning everything the hard way, how to be responsible when she needed to be a child, even going through the tests of life alone, because no one seemed to understand her or care about her, so she thought.
Silence became normality and laughter was history she had only read in books. Echoes of her voice were scarcely heard by the walls, as they seemed to be the ones that could lend an ear, to the lamentations she could air as most were hidden in her heart.
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Once in a while, she would seek solace from music, and she found comfort in strangers who sang songs that she could relate. She felt that they understood her better, strangers who in a matter of fact never even knew about her existence.
All along, she had built this huge wall around her. She wouldn’t let anyone in, but still complained about no one coming in. Funny, because this was a two way traffic she didn’t know about.
Anger was the order of the day as bitterness slowly and painfully consumed her from within. The hate she had towards them grew by the tick of time, till she became this ball of fury that anyone who attempted to get close would get burnt.
Every single day that passed was torture. How could they be this heartless? Invincible is what she felt to some extent, and not in a good way. Where was all the love they promised to give her? Even the dog got more attention than she did.
It all become too unbearable.
She couldn’t take it anymore. So she peddled as fast as she could, tears clouding her eyes, towards the end of the road that no one had ever dared to go past. She promised herself that she would not hit the brakes when she approached the cliff, because she wanted out.
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